It is a day for mom's today.  Happy Mother's Day to all you mother's out there.  Including those of you that this is your first mother's day!

I'm sitting here at my mom's with my mom, aunt, mamaw, uncle, cousin's and step dad.  Wow, this brings back a lot of memories of when we used to go down and see them in Sweetwater like every Sunday.  It makes me think and makes me realize how many changes I've made in the last year, school and all. 

Oh well, I'm off to spend time with the family.

NoahDW

I almost typed 'I ain't no hollaback gril'...that would for sure be an interesting song...:)

Anyway, went and helped Heather at Carter Tuesday with her tryouts.  It was good, she is going to have a good strong guard this year, no attitudes.  That's always good.  Mrs. Messer invited me back whenever I wanted to come.  How awesome.

Work is blah, just work.  Going to get some approved overtime next week, time and a half baby!

I'm in so much trouble that I don't know what to do.  It's not trouble per say...but you can look at it that way.  In the way either way I'm going to lose.  Damn I haven't done an in depth, all about Noah update in awhile.  Well, I'm trying to get my life back to Noah, all about Noah, just Noah.  Yes, so much going on, and I'm not sure how much longer it's going to last, there is so much resting on my shoulder's, including what I call happiness.  I realized I don't really know what happiness is.  I feel so miserable sometimes.

I did go to Chicago.  Got some cool stuff, but bad things happened.  I don't want to talk about them.  Very bad things.  I did see Blue Man Group and Naked Boys Singing.  I like them both, Blue Man was so fucking awesome, and I got two see 8 naked boys dance and sing around, and they are really naked, what more can I ask for, except for my own stardom. ;)

This sing is so how I feel right now, and I don't know what to do.  So many problems....

"I Hate Myself For Losing You"
Kelly Clarkson

I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now dying
Doesn't seem so cruel
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore

I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?

You got what you deserved
Hope you're happy now
'Cause everytime I think of her with you
It's killing me
Inside, and
Now I dread each day
Knowing that I can't be saved
From the loneliness
Of living without you
And, oh
I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew

I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?

I hate myself for losing you
And oh, I don't know what to do
I wish you knew
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore
No, no

I hate myself for losing you
(I'm seeing it all so clear)
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
What do you say when everything's said?
Is the reason why he left you in the end?
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won't ever bring him back again?
I hate myself for loving you

They do, but I'm still having trouble with some days being really bad. Ugh.  I guess everyone has that problem.

I don't know really what to say.  I'm going to Chicago again in abou a week.  We are going to see Blue Man Group and Naked Boys Singing.  I'm excited about that.  We are also planning on doing some hardcore shopping.  That all depends on whether or not we have money though.  I hope we do.  I need some new clothes.  I need to get in shape.  I'm going to go run today.  I think I said that before, but I doubt I actually will.  I think I am goin to buy Carmen Electra's Stripaerobics, there's also some other dance video I want.  But I don't know if I'd ever do them, I don't really have anywhere to do it at.  I could do it in the living room, but I don't want anyone there when I do it.  Oh well.  Heather said when I move she will come and do them with me since I won't have any roomies, except Matt, but he doesn't count, he's a given.  :)

Anyway, off to do whatever I'm going to do...that's right...nothing.

NoahDW

I like that song, but I don't.  I like it cause it's catchy and I can dance to it, but I don't like it because I've heard it like a million times because it's on our Best Buy radio which is all of 10 songs that replay over and over and over and over.

Do well right now.  I'm just kind of cruising along right now.  Things are going well for me.  Didn't get the job at work, but we don't talk about that, we didn't even get someone who had wireless experience, I mean you'd think they'd at least have that...considering the title is wireless expert.  Oh well, I'm over it.  She's nice and everything, and we get along because we are both neat freaks.

Anyway, just a quick update.  I'm going to go to bed, I have school and work tomorrow. 

Later Days!

NoahDW

So I'm updating.  Here at breakfast with Heather, Emily, Andrew, and Courtney.  I have psychology in a little while.  I want to go to bed.  I'm not in a good mood and I don't know why.  I'm typing on Heather's computer.  Yay.  I have to go to my grandma's today to give her money for the van.  I have to also talk to her about a new cell phone plan for her and grandpa because she wants a phone now.  Ha. 

I changed my title at work, I am now the Wireless Product Specialist.  I am honestly next in line for the position of Wireless Expert, like big money.  I am ready for that.  Ugh.

Anyway, I'm rolling out.

Later days.

NoahDW

So that' s what Emily just said, lol.

We are waiting to go to Psychology, and we are sitting in the UC, doing nothing, as usual.  Brittany and Courtney just left, sadness.  Heather didn't come today because she is sick, blech, hope I didn't give her what I had.  We don't know where the hell Andrew is, he's probably asleep.  Oh well.

That's all I have to say.  Woo.

Lata.

NoahDW

So, just so everyone knows (not that you didn't already know), facebook.com is sooo fucking addicting.  I mean, whoever thought of it is a fucking genius man.

I'm at my mom's right now.  I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow at 6:45 in the morn.  No way in hell was I driving to Maryville from my apt at 6:00am.  Nope, no way.  I also got a friggin' tasty meal out of it too!

I have to work at 9:30 tomorrow too, I get off at 2:00 and then I have to go to the hospitol for some tests, I know one of them is a liver function test and something else to.  For some new medicine I may start taking.  I hope Meliessa works tomorrow, she is such a sweetheart!  Apparently she knows a lot of the same people I know, it's insane.  She knows a lot of band people I know, crazy!

Anyway, love Matt more then ever.  Same with Joss Stone, the DVD is still ruling my world.  I'm starting to put my DVD's in Mp3 format, at least my Music DVD's so I can put them on my Ipod if I ever get one.  I want one sooo bad.  Wish we got a discount on them at work.

So much going on with the job too.  There may be a big something going on, can't say what it is right now.  We are going customer centric, but that's nothing baby.  Even though it is going to kick ass.  You all just better watch out, Best Buy is going to knock you socks off man!

Going to bed.  It's late.

Great cheese comes from happy cows.
Happy cows come from California.


NoahDW

I bought the Joss Stone DVD today at work...must say...I LOVE IT!  Joss Stone is awesome.

That's about it.  Went to work tonight, I was about to pass out the entire time.

Going to bed, watching Joss Stone...yum...

I wish I were in her skin ;)

NoahDW